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Monday, December 03, 2007
i thought we could.
10:17 PM i read jy's blog. and i saw this. jgd jiayan says (2:48 PM):sorry ! i miss sunshiny jiayan! jgd jiayan says (2:48 PM):i want her back! jgd jiayan says (2:48 PM):where did she go! peis. says (2:48 PM):yeas, i miss sunshiny jy too peis. says (2:48 PM):but i think she needs a break peis. says (2:48 PM):we all need breaks at some point of time peis. says (2:48 PM):im really tired too 2plus pm for her is probably like some in the middle of the night chat for me. im so tired that i cant even remember that i said this to her. but reading this made me sad for a little while. it's sad to watch your gfs be unhappy or whine about unhappy things with your gfs(though its always the best remedy.) we've always seen one another prancing around sn as happy little girls, feeling happy about orange bowls. it's sad how life can make us grow up sometimes. things dont go our way anymore, we cant quite accept ourselves being just average. no one wants to be just average. but things dont always happen the way we want them to. we dont mean to do evil things, we dont mean to say evil stuff. but they come out somehow, anyhow sometimes. there's no time for breaks, no time for rests, no time for naps, resting somehow makes us see our insufficiency more. i thought i was mad, i worked 21 hours out of the 48 hours weekend, and jy told me maybe, it's because we wldnt accept anything less than ourselves and that it's out of kindness that i covered a day for a colleague who cldnt make it for work. maybe it was, or maybe i did it because it gave me less time to think about how i shld deal with my less than average life. i guess we all need a break, and maybe things will be better then. not a day off school, but a nice long break with no one weird to disturb. |